Are you having a Merry Christmas?

Hay peeps, this is just a quick not to say "I told you so!" This is refering to my last blog on how i hate christmas and christmas hates me. It all kicked off in my household around 12 in the afternoon... earlier than usual.

The routine was kinda similar to any other xmas: we woke up and opened presents (i got an 'I LOVE XMAS' mug.. oh the irony) (mint fudge) & ( anti- masturbatory gum... RANDOM). That all went quite well but sadly i didnt really wanna be up as i'd been out the previous night, had drunk a heap of toxic drinks and walked 1hr home with aching feet because the friggin buses don't run (who's the genius that came up with that?)

Next I watched 'My Fair Lady' with Audrey Hepburn (such a good film) and from lazing on the sofa my sister advised I should go to sleep.. I did but later on my beautiful neice was screaming and crying for what seemed like 30minutes so i got a bit peeded and took solace in my living room. I made some comments that my neice was annoying me and her mother was less than impressed.

From that ridiculous scrobble, I have ended up alone and upset in my bedroom, what made the situation worse was that I commented on FaceBook that my sister had made my xmas exactly how i expected it... an upsetting and isolated one. The comment wasn't even as bad as it could've been but what's been done, has been done and now my 27 year old sister has made her feelings quite clear that she wishes to never speak to me again.





Hopefully I won't get another eash bashing for writing this but writing helps me stop feeling numb and stops me crying.


I really had hoped this year would be different but i think from next year I'm going to elope abroad. I must have that season disorder when you just hate certain times. I don't even like christmas dinner very much... it's gonna be about the alchohol from now on!

Drink and be Merry as they say, but I really hope that somewhere out there someone is having the perfect xmas.

Enjoy your holidays.

Love, the Diva

X X X

Bah Humbug to Christmas!

This scene says it all! People rushing out to buy last minute gifts, a stressed and peed off cashier, no one looks happy!

It seems every year christmas starts earlier and earlier, don't get me wrong because there are a few things I do like about Christmas, those being a few Christmas songs, decent presents, some alright movies on telly and some food and drink. For all the good things though, there are alot more bad things about it.

Rubbish X-mas songs, rubbish gifts, spending loads of money, drunk relatives, busy shopping centres and massive queues, brussel sprouts and those a just a few of my bad points.

My local, decent town centre in Kingston- Upon- Thames put up their decorations over a month ago and my local high street truned on their dismal lights which consists of tinsel and fairy light strung around the street lamps last week. It looks so pathetic and is a waste on our electrical resources, LOL! And they talk about GLOBAL WARMING!

My loathing of Christmas started about seven years or so ago, before that time I loved it and being the youngest of the family I revelled in getting what gifts I had asked for, going over to my nan and grandad's, stuffing my face with good food and playing games.

How times and puberty have change my family traditions, I hit the Kevin & Perry stage in life and I can admit (because I'm told so often) that I'm ungrateful. Yeah yeah whatever (as I used to say) Can I help it if there are certain things on my wish list that I wanted, can I help it if i get some smelly bath product... which I always end up using straight away just so that I can get rid of the damn thing. What can't be helped is that times change and things have become expensive. I understand fully now that my mum buying me a £60 camera would be appreciated but its not gonna help if that £60 pays two bills. I am in no way spoilt but I just want what I want!

Like my friend Yaisa says, "Christmas is for Children!"

Just writing about Christmas has got me all depressed, I can confess that I'm a Scrooge! There, I've said it! I'm glad that I can be excited for my neice Maisie spending Christmas with me this year, hopefully then I won't be throwing the tantrums, rather she will be and may I add she's only 3 but she's a diva in the making. Learns from the best.

Christmas these days doesn't feel like christmas and I wish that it was how it is potrayed in American films. If I had my wish we'd be sipping eggnoc, wearing terrible knitted reindeer jumpers, singing carols by the fire and unwrapping the most fabulous girfts from under our 8ft christmas tree, oh yeah, and it would defenitly be a white christmas. Snow can make or break the day, it will probably rain.

So here's me hoping for a better christmas, praying that I don't get annoyed or upset by one of my sisters because it's usually them and never my brother. Here's to good food and drink and a nice film to keep me occupied!

If all else fails and christmas is a terrible disaster, you'll find me in my bedroom.

HO HO HO, HO HO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Love The Diva

xxx

Wanting to shift those flabby bits? ME TOO!

You can clearly see my belly overhang. EURGH!

My face looks bloated and fat

I actually look pregnant and my thighs are super chunky!

Christmas is drawing ever closer and so are my fears of stuffing my face with gateux, quality streets, stuffing and turkey. I'm not the biggest fan of christmas but I am the biggest fan of food. I love food, i love looking at it, smelling it and eating it! I don't even have to be hungry to eat, nor do i actually have to like the food i'm eating. Thats's how bad I am.

But after christmas comes and goes, we're left with the evidence= chubbalubba faces and bellies!

This year saw a big transformation for me... I actually shifted that stubborn weight now I feel alot happier and healthier.

It took me 4 months along with the help and support of my friend Alison who also wanted to lose weight, WELL DONE ALISON! Want to know our secret? drum roll please... WeightWatchers.

So if after christmas and New Year, you find yourself making the same resolution as always (Must lost weight) then actually do it because I'd said the same thing for the last 5 years and finally I've done it.

I must add that the hard bit is keeping the weight off, after going on holiday and snacking on chocolate crepes, ice- creams, gyros I put on a little bit of weight. Then came halloween and at work it was a dieters nightmare, I scoffed profiteroles, chips and dips, gingerbread, marsmallows.. that was in just one day.

"There's a fat lady dying to get out of me!"

Trust me, it hasn't been an easy journey but I'm confident- ish that I won't put on all of the 37lbs that I lost. I'm just trying to say that quick fix diets and crazes are not what you should be doing because they really don't work. Me and Me sister sara were constantly looking up the next diet and I nearly tried the maple syrup diet (as successfully used by Beyonce) but then i admitted to myself in the beginning that I obviously wouln't be able to do it.

We are real people with normal lives to lead and turning up to work with a litre of maple syrup concoxtion just aint gonna happen. Let's face it we can't resist a treat, so if your serious about making a change to your life and figure, I really do recommend WeightWatchers..

It's the ONLY thing that's ever worked for me!

Good Luck to anyone trying to lose weight!

Love, The Diva

x X x

And what do you do???

You know when your talking to someone new and that question comes up, you don't want the person to end up bored.. "I'm a student," and "I'm an entertainment host.." what the hell is that? These are the two job titles I tell people and the same ones that I enter in job application forms. some of you may think (BORING!) whilst some of you will definelty be saying the same (the student part, anyways!)

I'm not ashamed of being a student, not at all but I would like to be more interesting than that and hope that all these years of essays, stress, assignments and tears, will not have been in vain.

I'm getting to the age where soon enough in society I should have THE career, but hold on for one second.. I'm only 20 years old and I have a long life to lead (I'm hoping). When we take our GCSE's we're supposed to have it all mapped out in our minds, well, in less than 6months I will have completed my journalism and creative writing course and will be left to my own devises of finding that money making job and I'm not even sure if i want to be a journalist anymore.

It all sounds like alot of hard work and the public will only think I'm a liar because whenever I tell adults of my career choices they laugh and say, "Journalists are liars..." "...lying scum." etc etc etc!

Let me give you the long list of jobs that only seems to get bigger with time.

JOBS? songwriter- tv presenter- police officer- dancer- music/ fashion journalist- P.A

DANCER?

and that's an up to date list!!!!

TV PRESENTER?

Am I naive in having such high hopes when the closest one I believe I could achieve is: Police officer.

It's good to have dreams and to have ambition... I've always been ambitious but I can't help but think I'm in way over my head.

The media is going to be a hard industry to crack but I am determined.

So this is my cry, my plead that whatever you do in life, you over strive and think the impossible, coz like the saying goes...

"It's better to have tried, than to have never tried at all."

~ Elbert Hubbard (1856-1915)~

What time is it? High School Musical 3 time, that's what time it is

I happily and excitedely saw HSM3: Senior Year the other night and aged 20 I'm not even that embarassed. It was like the other two, amazingly cheesy, camp and catchy... I nearly know all the songs all ready and I feel like it's the end of an era. Zac Efron looked amazingly hot and I've never seen him in that way until the 3rd movie. I hate Vanessa Hudgen's character (Gabriella) she's a bit of a bitch and leaves Troy in the lurch before they go to their prom.

If you like Footloose, Fame or Disney stuff in general then you'll love this movie. It really doesn't matter how old you are. I was shocked at how giddy the audience got and i'm talking about an audience of 16 year olds and older. It was like being at the theatre and was well worth the money.

GO SEE and if you're ashamed take a small child with you!

DiVa ExPlAiNeD!

Just to put it out there... I am far from a diva and don't you just hate it when people get the wrong impression of you because of certain things, For example, the way you look, dress, talk or even something you written etc.

(Vanessa Carby is annoyed!)

That is what my facebook status would say if I was allowed to vent my frustrations. I'm annoyed you see because of a throw away comment I wrote... I happened to write that I was annoyed at a certain company because I was being mucked about and wanted to get on with something. So anyways I've upset a few people now and it wasn't even meant in a vindictive way.

It's like me saying I'm annoyed at a certain shop because they don't have size 9 shoes (which is true) and then a person that works in that shop being peed off about my comment. Like get over it!

So to clarify I am not a diva, I'm not an actual bitch, I'm not 2 faced and I don't hate.

Some people like to cause drama and some people can only moan and I aint pleased that my first 2 blogs have been negative even though I still don't like Peaches Geldof. Green eyed!

I must let the bullies do their thing because I'm above them and there is a thing called KARMA baby!

Coming to a bitch near you!